I realize that this post is rather immature and slightly lame. I'm sure I will look back on it and consider myself a buffoon for even doing it, in fact I'm already getting cold feet about it. However my blog is in dire need of an update, and this is the only exciting thing that has happened to me since my last post. Pathetic, I know. Okay here it goes.
His name is Cody Collins Adams. We officially met a bit before Thanksgiving. I say officially because we both vaguely knew of each other before. We run with the same group of friends and it just so happened that we were both there that night. I don't even remember the activities that took place the night we met. I think we went to Denny's and to Lindsey Gardens. At the time I was interested in another boy, and was texting him the entire time. (Cody reminds me of this all the time) Cody paid zero attention to me the entire night. In fact he was all over our other friend. At the end of the night, as they were dropping me off at home Cody awkwardly punched my shoulder, when I turned around he was waving his phone while he said, "we should text." Of course I gave him my number because although I wasn't interested in the least, he was hilarious and I wasn't opposed to having him as a bud. Over that weekend we texted a lot. I had never laughed out loud from a text so many times as I did while reading Cody's texts. Still, I was holding out for my other fellow. That Sunday night Cody asked me to go to a movie with him, I agreed to go. Shortly after agreeing I called Kobi up in a panic. I explained the whole story and told her that I wanted to go but I didn't want to lead him on or let him think that it would be a date. After much brain storming she agreed to come along. That wasn't enough. I wanted to make sure that there was no way that he could confuse this as a date so I invited about 3 other people. We continued to hang out, of course always in a large group, but every night when we all went home Cody would call to say good night, and we would end up talking for a couple of hours. (Don't worry mom, Cody had Cingular as well so it was free. :)) One night we all were hanging out and everyone was in a terrible mood so the night was called very early. It seemed that Cody and I were the only ones in a good mood. So after they dropped me off I called Cody up and asked if he was done hanging for the night or wanted to go out for a bit longer, he said he would come get me and we would see where the night would take us. We ended up driving around for several hours. Normally not my idea of a good time, but I was so comfortable around Cody and I always had such a good time that I thought it would be fun. WRONG. That was the night I thought he had ruined our friendship forever. While driving up Foothill he poured his soul out that he had feelings for me, that he had never met anyone like me, that he felt this the first night at Denny's but was just too shy to talk to me. I was, for lack of a better word, pissed.. Of course I didn't let on but deep down I knew things could never be the same and it made me mad. How could he do this? How could he be so selfish? WTF?!?!?! I honestly felt at that time that we could have been best friends, and now he was going to ruin it by having feelings for me?! I told him that I only saw him as a friend and that's all I could be for him. He dropped me off shortly after that. A week or two later He convinced me to hang out just the two of us. It took a lot of convincing, I told him I didn't want to lead him on and that it would give him the wrong idea if I said yes. He assured me that he knew how I felt about him and he simply wanted to watch a movie. We ended up watching Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dream coat........true story. I left that night sure that I had the same feelings I had before I had gone over, but the next night when he came over to watch August Rush I wasn't as sure. Slowly but surely I became intrigued with Cody Adams. Being me I never let on. In fact I reminded him each time we hung out that I did not have feelings for him. To this day he tells me that he was sure I was Bipolar. We were talking on the phone one evening, and like always, I told him I had ABSOLUTELY NO feelings for him. Later that night when we were watching a movie, I turned to him and awkwardly, and for some reason loudly spit out in one long run on sentence something along the lines of, " I didn't like you, like at all, like I was not attracted to you in the least, but for some reason now I think that I am, I'm not sure and I probably don't, but I thought I should let you know, I'll keep you updated as I figure it out, but don't get your hopes up." Skipping forward several months here we are. He's the official Boyfriend. It's still kinda weird, but it's fun, and kinda exciting.
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